Entertaining moments of the day by children:

After trying on shoes the night before, Alaric comes up to mommy as she is putting on her shoes. He pushes his thumb down on her foot and says “these are to big.” They really weren't.

Leaving the gym we splashed in puddles on the way to the car. Once we got strap in, Alaric said in a surprised tone “my shoes are wet.”

Having some friends over, the three kids decided that they want to use the wagon and one turns to me and says “Can you pick up this mess so we can use the wagon” (speaking of the toys). “No” I state, “Then how are we going to get the wagon around?” “By picking up your own mess.” I reply. And then they cleaned up. Imagine that, cleaning up your own mess :)

I love kids, they make me laugh.

Hmm, don't really know how I am feeling. Even though it feels as though I feel nothing (besides that I am very short tempered right now) but I think that there is a bit of depression in me. I realized last night that I take things that happen in my life and just put them in the back of my mind and forget about them, never really dealing with them and I think it is starting to affect me. I also realized that lately I have not had any time to grieve, to process. Every minute I am awake, I have responsiblities to someone and not a moment alone. I feel sorry for my son, he gets the short end these last couple of days. Ever just want to run, run away, run from everything and never stop. Wish there was someone that was always there for you, that you can lean on. I am not saying I do not have friends that support me, but I internally do not feel that there is one person that I can fall apart on.
I realized last night that I have become a person who has to do it all by herself and for herself and does not count on anyone to help them. It is tough in those hard moments, when you've shut out help. Or something like that.
Sorry that all my posts are sad lately, just going through a rough time in life and the only way I deal with things is to write, so here I am. Opening my soul.